One year ago at the end of this month, I started writing this blog. Technically, I was blogging before that at Blogger, but if you've been here since then, you'll know I broke that blog trying unsuccessfully to export the posts over here. It's too bad, because I sort of missed out on the entire rapid weight loss part of the journey, I wrote things here and there, and especially over at Obesity Help and to my email groups, but never thought anyone could possibly be interested in it as a "blog." Who writes about that stuff, anyways? (So I thought.)
This blog came about as a metamorphosis of my first journal-like entries at Blogger. When I was "fried" from my job last January, I found myself with too much free time on my hands while at home, and I delved into blogging much more frequently, as a form of writing therapy. I had initially meant for the blog to be a source of motivation, to help myself and anybody interested, to lose weight and maintain. Of course as soon as I started posting frequently to more readers, I got pregnant and lost my focus entirely, and moved onto pregnancy issues, and weight-related issues. Now, a year later, a baby later, I'm back in the same place, even at the same weight.
Since I've had such a wash of a year, I feel like I have to keep blogging, at least until I get where I'm going, you know? I had considered deleting it and quitting altogether, due to outside circumstances, but, what does that accomplish? If I didn't keep some of this stuff on the mind all the time, I'd be eating fudge and rolling my ass back to the surgeons' office within years, I know it. It's slightly obsessive, sure, but what isn't? When I think about the reason I considered deleting and going stealth, it occurred to me - "Who really gives a ______ about what I may or may not write about here? If you don't like it - don't read it." We all don't have to agree, and you don't have to "like" me, or what I write about. So, I'm here. I'm sticking around.
This coming year, I'm going to delve into deeper (Deep Thoughts, ooh) issues and messier subjects. That's what you want to read anyways, the dirt. (Not my dirt, well maybe some of mine, but more the general DIRT.) Nobody cares about the fluff. We skim the fluff, looking for the dirt.
So, what about the fluff? Well, in the past year, I've had nearly 30,000 hits. I've made 500 posts, (yeah, there were about one hundred more that have been deleted, and about fifty that never made it to "publish" and a few that are in the wings, waiting for a chance on stage) and... that's all fluff.
So - happy blog-aversary to me.
