There's still time for resoluting, that's a verb and I made it up just now. I think I told you before that I do not so much make resolutions because I am not so great at follow-through. However I could maybe do it in reverse and make anti-resolutions!
I COULD RESOLVE TO:
- Gain weight.
- Start smoking.
- Eat more fast food.
- Take up drinking alcohol regularly.
- Drink more caffeinated beverages, maybe start on Mountain Dew, less water.
- Stop taking vitamins.
You see - I think I could actually follow through with those - in reverse - I won't do it.
But if I write down that I am going to
- "Lose weight."
- "Get more exercise."
- "Eat less carbohydrates."
- "Eat more real whole veggies and fruit."
- "DRINK PLAIN WATER."
I don't do it. I just sort of tread water and do nothing.
I don't really do anything bad, I just sort of stagnate.
I drink tea, coffee, Diet Coke, and I eat cheese, protein bars, chocolate and bits of whole grain carbs.
I maintain.
MM is not here eating Cheetos (tried them once this year, nearly died) and drinking Frappuccinos.
My blood sugar is 'okay' and has been, because I eat all day long, it's the defense mechanism I have learned.
- Eat constantly = happy fat hypo.
- Eat never = happy cranky miserable hypo.
- Eat meals = hypo in a coma.
In the bigger picture of WLS, I am a "good patient." I know I break the rules, (I know I make some of the newbies CRINGE with my rule busting) but overall, I am doing alright. Most of us fail by five years. I am at five years in two months. If I screw this up in 8-10 weeks, kill me now.
But. It's still not good enough. It never is. I'm not eating well. I need better nutrition, I am not going to bitch about my weight, because I will hear the line: "You don't need to lose any weight," but I am technically still overweight, and I have been forever.
- I am not-resolving to eat better.
- I am not-resolving to lose weight while doing so.
- I am not-resolving to get my blood moving while exercising in some fashion in my home - because outdoor exercise is just.not.feasible in the next few months. It's cold. We moved. This road is SCARY.
I am resolving - resoluting! - to get healthy - and - to write about it - whether you like it or not. I have a feeling '09 is going to be an interesting ride.
